Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Next?

I will be finished with my current interim position at the end of July. I'm not sure when there new pastor will be starting, but I think I would like 6 weeks at home before the baby comes.
They are voting on extending a call to someone on Sunday. I'm assuming that it will be a positive vote and I'm also assuming that the pastor will take the call when offered.
I'm excited for the church. To have someone permanent and to move on in a positive direction. I'm excited that they are voting on calling a woman. I've been told that I probably helped in their openness to those considerations. So, that feels good.
I do feel a bit in limbo. Excited for them. Sad for myself. Excited to hear them making plans. But out of the loop because I remember. Wait. I won't be here.

I'm not completely certain what is next. I interviewed for a half time ministry related position, but I didn't come out excited, so I will not pursue it further.

I know that I will be home until January. And I might choose to stay home longer than that. I'm needed at the farm. I'm needed with my family. But it also makes me nervous. I feel like a huge part of my identity is wrapped up in my career. Something I worked hard for and do well, (most of the time).

I'm trying to get comfortable with the idea of SAHMom/Farmer. I'm trying to see that contribution to the family as valuable. Right now, I'm able to put a value on my contribution. Paycheck, health insurance. Staying at home has a value that is not as tangible and I need to get my head around it. 

So, Next? I don't know. I just don't know...

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Changes

I can't say a lot now, but I have learned that life could be in the process of changing very soon. I'll learn more in the next couple days.
Have no fear. Dustin, Ian, the fetus, and I are all fine and healthy.
More breaking news as it becomes available.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Rain, Rain, Go AWAY! But not forever or anything!

It is a rather dreary day in North Dakota, at least our part of it. We have only seen the sun fleetingly since Sunday. Sunday at noon, it looked beautiful. By 3:30 rain and dreariness.
I've taken the rain delays in the field in stride. I've been coming into church. I took vacation to help seed and it rained most of the time (with one day of snow!)
I'm sure I'll still get plenty of time in the planter, but not for awhile. When we can go again...It will be go, go, go until we are done.
My may calendar looks rather bare, but I can't believe it is true. It must just be that I haven't written everything down for the month. Graduation isnt' even written in yet. We have three invites. We will go to our neice's for sure. So, that will wipe out another one, so we'll just have to get the gift together for that one.  I think we'll head to Litchville-Marion as well.
Reyna and Marty's wedding was beautiful. It was a fun weekend and fun to get away for a little time without Ian. I love my son, but sometimes it is nice to get to sleep in and act like my life is my own.
So, this week has been filled with trying to get caught up on the last two weeks of my life that I haven't been here.
The best part of the week has been lunch with the girls. TWO DAYS IN A ROW! I so could take on life as a lady who lunches. But by Wednesday I'll be back to spit-up, laundry, and a finicky eater. (My son, not my husband!) 
Dustin has been a very productive little bee today. He and my little cuz (he's also our hired man, as well as my little cousin!) worked on finishing up the wiring project in our house that needed completion. We got a new breaker box and some stuff had to be connected to it yet. They also fixed my stove, so I can cook again (Oh, the Joy of now not knowing what to make and not having an excuse for picking up chicken anymore!)
I think I will actually make a meal tonight. (Don't faint people, I do cook on a regular basis.) I usually enjoy it.
I have turned a corner with the finicky eating toddler. Raw fruits. Watermelon, grapes, cantaloup. I can't get him to eat veggies other than cucumbers and celery anymore, so fruit it is.  Watching Ian eat the celery is kinda entertaining. He only has 7 teeth!
I'm hoping that once he can eat raw veg out of the garden I will convert him over to vegetables.  He ate chicken last night and it wasn't the nugget kind! He ate real chicken! I'm so proud. Relieved. Maybe he will move onto other exciting meats. Like hamburger!  A girl can dream.
In baby news. This little one is kicking and jumping up a storm. She likes to tap dance on my bladder and I can't imagine how bad it gets as she gets bigger.
Well, that's all for now. Have a great day!

Monday, May 10, 2010

It's a Girl!

I was right. The ultrasound last Thursday confirmed my hunch. We are having a little girl.  I'm very excited that we will have one of each, but I also thought it would be really cool to have two boys close in age. So, really, I would have been thrilled with either.
Everything is looking good.
I've added the countdown ticker in an appropriate color now.
Pink

I have changed my background too, but that's not because we are having a girl. I've been feeling girly and love the brown and pink together, so it was perfect.

I'm amazed that we are over half way through this pregnancy. I've been a lot calmer because I know what pregnancy feels  like. It's been interesting what is similar this time and what is different. I'm much more calm about delivery and my birthplan and feel much more levelheaded about it.

I was so hyped up last time. The unknown. The baby coming early and my body not being ready. I thought I was prepared, but really was completely caught off guard and so I didn't go through with the plan I had in my head. I kinda went blindly. I know this time, I won't have that same reaction. I will be in more control of the process and comfortable asking for what I need to make the birth easier for myself.

I might be growing up! 'Bout time, since I'm having my second kid and all.